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  • Status: Member
  • Pencil Artist
  • Female/United States
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  • Deviant since Mar 5, 2008, 12:15 AM
  • 21 Deviations
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I'm not sure where this is going...

Journal Entry: Wed Apr 9, 2008, 11:39 PM
But I feel like I need to write something. But I don't even know where to start. I am full to the bursting. I don' think my heart can take much more of this. It's all too much.

Why isn't there a song written for that feeling? You know, the one you get when there is no one to break your heart, and yet you feel like you are decaying under the weight of it all?

I am crumbling. I hate it here, but I am completely and utterly trapped by debt and fear.I am terrified. Oh, God please, I need You.

And you know what the worst part is? Talking about it doesn't help. But neither does bottling up.

I tried to save my time in a bottle, every moment.

I just don't know.

Why don't they allow you to private your journals on this thing? It's really irritating. Whatever, I supposed that if I cared enough I could always write all this somewhere else. And yet, there is something remarkably comforting about the fact that somewhere out there a stranger is reading this. They'll know how I feel, but I don't have to worry about them over-analyzing or trying to solve my problems. Whatev.

On second thought, I doubt that this is the reason they give you a journal on here. Maybe it's more like a blogspace. Ah! I am so tired!

Let go. I don't know. I really, more than anything else, just want to leave and go somewhere new.

  • Listening to: Jason Mraz :: I'm Yours

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 20
  • Current Residence: Nowhere
  • deviantWEAR sizing preference: That's cute...
  • Interests: Singing, Acting, Writing, Drawing, Dancing, Reading, Myspace(=loser).
  • Favourite band or musician: Jason Mraz, Showtunes.
  • Favourite genre of music: skmrgbqi3eaj bgho5wp4erpshibg. And you?
  • Favourite artist: ...?
  • Favourite poet or writer: ....????
  • Favourite photographer: www.myspace.com/OceansPhoto
  • Favourite style or digital art: Pencil Drawings are my love. Because I do them.
  • Operating System: H freaking P. Yes, it's lame. Yes, Macs are better. But I. Am. Poor.
  • MP3 player of choice: Ipod.
  • Shell of choice: The Sea kind.
  • Wallpaper of choice: The self-adhesive kind.
  • Skin of choice: Rabbit.
  • Favourite game: Hide and Seek. Not really.
  • Favourite gaming platform: PC
  • Favourite cartoon character: I am a cartoon character. Fail.
  • Personal Quote: Fail.
  • Tools of the Trade: P to the Encil (Mechanical and sketch). Makeup wedges, q-tips, box cutter, kneaded rubber eraser,

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Devious Comments

~socratesismyhomeboy:iconsocratesismyhomeboy: Apr 18, 2008, 12:18:54 AM
Heyheyheyguesswhat.

Guess who's going to be in town tomorrow.

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And you think that's okay while you're sleeping...
~ZoulJiin:iconZoulJiin: Apr 10, 2008, 12:45:07 PM
Likewise, you are my hero. Your writing is fantastic. I look forward to reading more of it!

I don't know if you're into McSweeney's...but I find your cleverness to be very McSweeney's-esque. It's meant as a compliment.

And thank -you- for the devwatch! :aww:

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~I-----JustDontKnow:iconI-----JustDontKnow: Mar 25, 2008, 9:46:06 AM
My pleasure. You're work is lovely.
~lucidity69:iconlucidity69: Mar 17, 2008, 8:40:03 AM
Tks for the fav again :) <3
*Idzit:iconIdzit: Mar 14, 2008, 7:39:50 AM
Thanks for the fave on my geisha costume!

:flirty:

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"If one synchronized swimmer drowns... do they all have to?"
~theonlykristlove:icontheonlykristlove: Mar 11, 2008, 12:46:17 AM
Thanks for the fav.

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je'taime
~FrozenThunderbolt:iconFrozenThunderbolt: Mar 9, 2008, 1:48:57 PM
Thank you for the watch and the favourites. It is much appreciated ;)

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To make a single being happy, by a single act, is greater than a thousand heads bowed in prayer. . .
=lazyimbecile:iconlazyimbecile: Mar 7, 2008, 1:23:15 PM
appreciate the comments and favs, thank you!

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urban.construkt / lazyimbecile
*Kays-elle-belle:iconKays-elle-belle: Mar 7, 2008, 10:10:41 AM
Thanks so much for the favorite :D
<3
Ellie

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Kay & Ellie
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~Santri:iconSantri: Mar 7, 2008, 4:47:11 AM
Thanks! the dance really was cool!
*akaLilith:iconakaLilith: Mar 7, 2008, 2:29:10 AM
Thanks for the fav and the watch.

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~lucidity69:iconlucidity69: Mar 6, 2008, 11:20:39 PM
Thanks for the fav :)
~I-----JustDontKnow:iconI-----JustDontKnow: Mar 6, 2008, 6:52:41 AM
It was a lovely piece of work. :)
~I-----JustDontKnow:iconI-----JustDontKnow: Mar 6, 2008, 6:52:03 AM
No problem, and believe me, I will be watching. ^_^